Tuesday, October 03, 2006

And so it is.....


sometimes we run from the hands of kindness and every now and then we run from the eyes of friends, but you know, sometimes an open door is just so so hard to find

for the record, i am not wallowing...just being real, because when we truly know our devils and our deeds, we need to be prepared to bleed

SLOW EMOTION REPLAY
(From the album "DUSK" by The The)

The more I see
The less I know
About all the things I thought were wrong or right
& carved in stone

So, don't ask me about
War, Religion, or God
Love, Sex, or Death
Because....

Everybody knows what's going wrong with the world
But I don't even know what's going on in myself.

You've gotta work out your own salvation.
With no explanation to this Earth we fall
On hands & knees we crawl
And we look up to the stars
And we reach out & pray
To a deaf, dumb & blind God who never explains.

Every body knows what's going wrong with the world
But I don't even know what's going on in myself.

Lord, I've been here for so long
I can feel it coming down on me
I'm just a slow emotion replay of somebody I used to be.

12 comments:

mister tumnus said...

i'm glad you're back too. and it's funny because i was just thinking about joni mitchell about an hour ago. there's that eucahrist bell again...

mister tumnus said...

and for the record, when i read lyrics like that it makes me feel hopeful. i'm not wallowing either. but i know that thought; 'don't ask me...' It is a blessed thing to hear it from someone else's heart. maybe that is everything we can hope for.

and i think i know what jules is saying too, about knowing less. i think that applies to knowledge but also to wisdom in my case. there are things my daughter knows as she dances in circles in the kitchen that i think i lost a long time ago and i think if god is anywhere then perhaps (s)he is in that distance between what ana knows and what i seek to regain.

Pádraig Ó Tuama said...

Hey there, Pádraig in Belfast here (via the haiku-blog of my small cat Mog) - often check in here at the Harbour. I like the honesty, the beauty, the enjoyment of a good poem or lyric or quote, the sense of gathering.
Hope all is well for you good sir.

jazzshark said...

Steve here - just using a friend's blogger account (get it switched so non-blogger peoples can post!

That song is definitely in my top 5 of all time, lyrically - the rest of the album is so great as well. Love Is Stronger Than Death... oh, and the last song... 'If you can't change the world, change yourself'. Matt Johnson kept me sane through college. That album did more for me than I think I could ever list...
x

awareness said...

The hands of kindness are never far away.
The hands of kindness wait to help you open the door.

When you're ready.

Nikita said...

I'm glad you're back Paul. I am.

Nikita said...

Oh actually while I'm here can I have a little rant away from my own page? I love my friends but man are they making me cross.

I want to develop my Christianity. I see it as a path to follow and teachings to learn as I try to recover from mental illness.
Why then do some people find it so hard to understand this? I'm doing it because it's my faith and it's what I have chosen to help me. It's on fragile ground right now, it's delicate.
All I ask is that people give me a chance and stop being so atheistic and dismissive of my beliefs.

My work here is done.

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

thanks everyone for the kind words...

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

Niki

It takes much courage to follow the path of faith (however that looks - and it looks very different for everyone)

i don't know if you would be interested but this weekend at Les Cotils we holding some seminars which will explore if christians know how to be spiritual with John and Olive Drane (2 lovely deep warm humans)

i think you might find it helpful - examining the question of whether human beings are intrinsically programmed to be 'spiritual'?

Nikita said...

It does sound good actually, yeah. Would you be able to tell me the times etc? I don't think I've seen them listed. nikitaelizabeth@cwgsy.net

Thanks sparkle

skinnylittleblonde said...

Thank you for such a profound post!
Sometimes, some of us even run right over kindness & goodness, because we don't even recognize it until all is said & done.

Nikita said...

Oh I just saw on your current reading list you have long way down by nick hornby - excellent book.
I've just finished one called a million little pieces by james frey - that's amazing.