Thursday, December 07, 2006

beauty now gone...


...and i fear i have nothing to give, and i have so much to lose here in this lonely place called 3.30am...

still looking for the sails.....came across this, one of the many reasons my soul cannot find peace tonight...

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.
~anonymous~

the storm, both inside and out, still rages...

16 comments:

Niki said...

My storm is raging too Paul; inside myself and outside in Guernsey as I learnt on the way into college this morning.

Just sit tight and look closely at the darkness.

mister tumnus said...

i don't know what to say in response paul. niki, i think 'look closely at the darkness' is pretty awesome advice. somehow (sometimes) the careful observation of something that cannot be fully understood is enough to get one through it. can be hard work though.

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

i guess if we look close enough into what seems to be impenatrable - we do see

The Meaning Weakened by the Lies said...

Harbour - true, but is it always what we want to see? I think this is the reason I won't look.

Mr. Althouse said...

That is nice. It sounds hauntingly familiar, like I've read it before, but maybe not. Maybe it's just one of those sentiments that I recognize so profoundly because it resides that close to my heart.

Mike

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

MWBL,
no, i don't think, most of the time it is....it's why few of us ever do look

Mike,
I had the same reaction - it must be one of those sayings that we come across in our sub-conscious - we're not quite sure of it's source, nobody knows who penned it....i kind of like that

Gabrielle Eden said...

well written post, and intersting

Julie said...

I'm not coping very well at all at the moment. Often I don't want to carry on. I do for God and for my kids but I get so lonely and feel so isolated. I mostly wish or at least look forward to being free from this pain and being with God.
Maybe your honesty Paul has given me the guts to be honest too.
It's good to know I'm not alone in my struggle with just surviving each day.

Julie x

Niki said...

Thanks Mr T; I need to follow my own advice more often.

Just a shout out to Julie; you're not alone at all although I know sometimes it feels that way. Just keep breathing. x

Awareness said...

These are THE most difficult lessons we learn, and as much as we try our best not to feel hurt, not to hurt others it happens. We can all relate. I wish I could say that I havent been hurt or havent hurt others. It is painful to even think of it. I do believe however that we don't have nasty intentions behind our actions....we are all striving for happiness and calm and kinship........we want to love and be loved. Raging storms eventually subside, though at times it feels like they will never go away.

Beauty isn't gone......it's hiding under the slush and grime of life.

There are no effective words that can help you Paul as you try to figure out your own storm.......just know that there are many who can relate and who are thinking of you...... as you can see by the comments left here.

The picture you chose for your post is beauty. You found it.....and saw the beauty of it.

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

The marvellous Father O'Donohue says that 'beauty does not linger, it only visits. Yet beauty's visitation affects us and invites us into its rhythm, it calls us to feel, think and act beautifully in the world: to create and live a life that awakens the Beautiful.

Cat said...

I hope you don't mind me commenting Paul, I have just begun to delve back into the world of blogging.

That's a lovely quote you shared from Father O' Donohue .

I think humans are like slipstreams driven backwards by the propellers of our darkness or driven forward by a light we can't claim as our own but that has been freely given to us. It's a head scratcher alright.

x Cat (Cray)

P.S Were you quoting Sarah Mclachlan before? If so great tune, especially the live version.

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

You know cat, i hadn't noticed that before but now you mention it i guess my subconscious was as its appeared on 'shuffle' a fair bit - funny how lyrics do that - it certainly wasn't intentional, but i agree it's a remarkable tune

aside, Father O'Donohue really cannot do much wrong...he is a mystic treasure

The Father said...

did you read that in the papa O'D book you stole from me ....

ah its in a better home now I'm sure

am in the london flat preparing the town for your arrival ..... hope to be blessed by you soon ....

m

maggi said...

hello paul, just wanted to let you know that your writing (here and on the GB site) hs done me a lot of good lately. Especially at 3.30 am.

The Harbour of Ourselves said...

as yours has for me maggi

thank you